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"Lady Dara?" I turned back and I saw Butler Choi surprised about my presence. He was like a father to me because he was always there aside from 'him' whenever my parents are not around. I just smiled sweetly at his expression.





"Oh my! It's really you lady! When did you came back? We all missed you here especially master" He said with full happiness.




I hugged Butler Choi for I missed him too. "I just came back last night and I decided to make a visit here first before heading to other businesses, by the way where is he?" I said after releasing him from my hug.





"Ah master is in his usual activity, he's still at the library reading." He said.





"He still didn't change, he still love reading." I smiled. I told Butler Choi not to bother calling him out for me, and I will just surprise him about my presence.





"Okay lady, just tell me if you need something. I'll tell the maids that you are here, I'm sure they'll be happy to know." I nodded as he walk me towards the door of the mansion.




As soon as I entered, memories started to came back to me again. I don't know if I should be happy reminiscing them or I should feel sad and guilty about the deeds we shared back then.




The mansion is still the same, it still feels empty and gloomy. I can't believe that I managed to live half of my life in this lonely mansion and I can't believe he chose to stay here. I suddenly felt stiffened as I saw a portrait of a happy family.




[Flashback- 16 yrs old]




"Oppa what are you doing?" I sluggishly said as I felt hot breath against my neck.




"Sshh... just keep quiet or else you'll wake up the maids" he said while caressing my thighs. He started kissing my neck. I couldn't do anything because I'm afraid I'll wake up the others. I looked up to my bedside clock and saw that it was 2am in the morning.




"Oppa, it is so early could you just stop this?" I pleaded him. But he just shrugged it off and told me to just keep quiet. He made his way on top of me and rested his body between my legs.




He slowly pulled up my shirt up to my chest, I didn't wear any bra so I was totally exposed in front of him. He started to massage my exposed stomach and began to leave trailing of kisses from it up to my neck again. He continued kissing my neck and started to suck on it. I couldn't help not to release a soft moan from the pleasure he is giving me. He stopped when he heard it and smirked.




"Naughty princess" he chuckled after saying that. He started calling me 'princess' after that incident when we were still kids at first it's irritating but I grew used to it. After kissing and sucking my neck, he proceeded on kissing my lips hungrily. His tongue licked my lips and I know that he wants me to make him through my mouth.




I kept my mouth closed but when he started to massage my left breast, I let out a moan and gave him a chance to enter my mouth. I could feel his tongue exploring my wet cavern after a while I responded to him, we had a tongue battle as if we're hungry for each others mouth.




As he massaged my left breast with his right hand, his left hand made its way under me. He slipped his hand through my pajama and felt him touching my underwear.





"You're wet" he said, I blushed from what he said so I covered my eyes with my hand, but he immediately took it off.





"Dont, I want to see you" He said while smiling. Even though I'm starting to feel so much pleasure, I remembered that we're doing something wrong again.





"Oppa, stop" I said as he was about to slip his hand under my underwear.





"Please, this will be the last, I promise" he said as he started to touch my private part. He always say that whenever I tell him to stop, but he always breaks the promise, we kept on doing our deed over and over again.





"Oh, you're so wet my princess" He said as he thrust a finger through my hole, I gasped in pain every time he does that I always feel pain so just like the old ways he distracted me with his hungry kiss and his other hand's still busy fondling my breast. I kept moaning in his mouth as he thrust his finger deeper and faster into my hole.





He began pushing another finger inside and after a while he pushed in another one. I couldn't take the pleasures anymore so I accidentally released a loud moan.





"Sshh... tone it down my princess," he said chuckling. Then he came back kissing me again.





I started giving him the same pleasure he's giving me so I grabbed his throbbing member out of his boxers and started stroking it, he immediately groan when I stroked it. He pulled out from our kiss and let out a moan.





I continued stroking his member as he thrust his fingers on me harder and faster. We stayed like that for a while as we both reached our peak and climaxed. I smiled hoping it would be the last time we're doing it.





He pulled his finger out of me and then I saw it disappeared inside his mouth. I could see lust from his eyes while doing it. After that, I realized he already pulled down his boxers and exposed his fully erected member. As he was about to pull down my underwear, I grabbed his hands and stopped him.





"Oppa, no dont" And with that he came back from his senses but I noticed sadness in his eyes.




"I know" is all he could say.




Every time we do our deed I always feel guilty behind all the pleasures we both shared. We've been doing our deed since I was 14, he's 2 years older than me.




At first I don't have any clue why we're doing it, every time I ask him he would always say that I'll die if we don't do it and that he doesn't want me to die. I know it doesn't make sense but I believed him. The first time we did I cried in pain, but I thought it would be better than to die. As time passed by I realized his reason was a lie all along but I can't bring myself to stop him completely because he's always breaking his promise not to do it again.





Our deed never comes to having sex with each other, I don't know if I should be happy about it all i know that we're still doing something unacceptable. He knows that there's a border between our acts. He just contented himself with just small pleasures we gave to each other.




[End of flashback]





I shook my head for bringing up those memories. I stared at the portrait and thought how could we be a happy family back then? My parents are always away busy with their jobs. I grew up with only maids and him by my side. He was always there for me. But sometimes I don't know if it is a good thing that he is always by my side.