I know

[His POV]




I still miss her. It’s has been what? Seven years since I last saw her but still, I can’t get her out of my head. The whole time she’s not around, I drown myself with a lot of things just to make me forget all about her. I locked myself in reading books in this gloomy library. I feel like I’m going to suffocate once I stop and remember that she’s not around anymore. No matter what I do, I can’t bring myself in forgetting her.




I miss her scent, her long brown hair that flows softly when the wind blew it, her eyes, oh those eyes that captivated my heart, and those pink soft lips that looked so cute once she pouts.




I can’t deny that I’m obsessed with her. I fell completely in-love when I first saw her, I know that we were so young back then but I made myself believe that someday I will be having my own happy family with her, spend our lives together until we grow old, watching our grand children running around our own house. But I know that those will always stay as dreams only.




I know that we can never be together forever. I know that I will never be the man whom she will be having her own family with. But I can’t make myself stay away from her. I want her to be only mine.




I took advantage of her innocence, I am older than her and I took advantage of her weakness. I thought doing those things would make her mine and love me back, but I realized it just made her scared of me and slowly drifted away from me.




I regret doing those things to her, I know she hates it when we’re doing those deeds but I can’t make myself stop thinking that’s the only way I could be close to her and could express my love, I didn’t know at first that I am slowly hurting her.




I am so selfish back then and maybe until now for I still hope of having her. I know what I did will never be forgiven, and I was completely blinded by my love for her.






[Flashback]




My parents died in a car accident when I was nine years old, I was with them when the accident happened, and people said I was lucky for I survived but I wished I just died with my parents. When I thought all of my relatives don’t want to have me, one of dad’s brothers finally took me, Uncle Park.




“Dara dear, meet your new playmate” Uncle introduced me. I’m hiding behind his back for I am shy around others.




“Oh, don’t be shy.” He patted my head, so I decided to show myself head bowed down.




“Dear, he’s your cousin call him oppa because he’s older than you, okay?”




“Okay appa” I brought up my head as I saw her smiled sweetly at me.




She’s is so beautiful, wearing her cute pink dress with a big pink bow on her head. I felt my cheeks burning. I never thought that what I felt that time was already love.




I grew comfortable around her. We would sometimes play but most of the time I play outside with other kids. I noticed that she would just watch us play from her room’s window. I felt sorry for her and thought how could I leave her alone.




“Why don’t you play outside with us?” I asked her once while we’re playing her ‘girly games’ again.




“I don’t like, they don’t like me, plus they are all boys” She said while pouting.




She’s so cute whenever she does that. I felt sorry for her because she doesn’t have any other playmates other than me and the maids.




“If that’s the case, then I’ll just play with you always” I said while grinning.




“Really? You’ll do that for me? Her eyes grew wide while her lips turned into a big smile.




“Yup, sure” I said while blushing and scratching the back of my head.




We played everyday at the gazebo with her ‘princess games’ I always played her humble servant which is I really hate. I want to be her prince but she keeps on saying that I should be her servant, well I don’t really asked her to make me her prince I just nodded to everything that she says.




We continued playing at the gazebo until one day, something happened. I confessed to her that I want to be her prince but before that I made her cry. I felt mad at myself for making her cry but at least I made her happy after that.




That day I experienced my first kiss. I didn’t know why I kissed her, I just felt like doing it. Her lips were soft. I felt really happy that day. She was as surprised as me when we kissed but I immediately thought of an excuse. I couldn't forget about that day because it's the same day that I promised to her I would be with her always.


[End of Flashback]




Love took over my innocence. I knew at that point that I want her to be my wife someday. My little mind thought everything would be that easy. I kept the promise I made her but I never thought that I would go beyond staying and protecting her.